Mikaela's Moon

I wish I wasn't
by Heather Headley

I'm home alone again
And you're out hangin' with your friends
So you say
Somehow I know it's not quite that way

It's getting pretty late
And you haven't checked on me all day
When I called you didn't answer
Now I'm feelin' like you're ignorin' me

I wish that you were home
Holdin' me tight in your arms
And I wish I could go back
To the day before we met
And skip my regret

I wish I wasn't in love with you
So you couldn't hurt me
It just ain't fair the way you treat me
No, you don't deserve me
Wasted my time thinkin' 'bout you
And you ain't never gon' change
I wish I wasn't in love with you
So I wouldn't feel this way

When you touch me my heart melts(And anything you did wrong I forgive)
Yeah, yeah
So you play me and take advantage
Of the love that I feel for you
Why you wanna hurt me so bad
I believed in you that's why I'm so mad
Now I'm drowning in disappointment
And it's hard for me to even look at you

I wish that you were home, oh, yes, I do
Holdin' me tight in your arms, ooh, baby
And I wish I could go back
To the day before we met
And skip my regret

I wish I wasn't in love with you
So you couldn't hurt me (I don't wanna hurt no more)
It just ain't fair (It just ain't fair, no) the way you treat me
No, you don't desert me (You, you)
Wasted my time thinkin' 'bout you
And you ain't never gon' change (You ain't never gonna change)
I wish I wasn't (I wasn't in love) in love with you
So I wouldn't feel this way (I wouldn't feel this way)

Said you care about me, but from what I see
I ain't feelin' that, so I disagree
Gave you all my love and understanding
And you treated me like your enemy

So leave me alone, don't bother to follow me
Now just go back where you came from
This house is no longer your home
You are not welcome no, no, no more, no more

I wish I wasn't in love with you
So you couldn't hurt me (You couldn't hurt me, baby)
It just ain't fair (It just ain't fair) the way you treat me (The way you treat me)
No, you don't deserve me (You don't deserve me, baby)
Wasted my time (Oh, oh) thinkin' 'bout you (Thinkin' about you)
And you ain't never gon' change (You're never gonna change, never gonna change)

I wish I wasn't in love with you
So I wouldn't feel this way
I wish I wasn't in love with you
So you couldn't hurt me (You couldn't hurt me this bad)
It just ain't fair (It ain't fair) the way you treat me (No, it ain't fair)
No, you don't deserve me (You don't deserve me, my love)
Wasted my time (Ooh) thinkin' 'bout you (Thinkin' about you)
And you ain't never gon' change (You ain't gonna never change)
I wish I wasn't (Wasn't) in love with you (In love with you)
So I wouldn't feel this way

Hear you knockin' at the door again
I'm wonderin' should I let you in
I open up the door and see
The flowers for me, so beautiful in your hand
You start beggin' me to take you back
I've always been a sucker for romance
And before you know it I could see it, you're all over me
Oh, no, here I go again

I wish I wasn't in love with you
So you couldn't hurt me

* this song is for you...*