Mikaela's Moon

If the feeling is gone
revival by Kyla

If the feeling is gone
please don't pretend that you still love me
I can see it in your eyes
and it hurts to admit it
I can tell that the feeling is gone

All i ask is just a little honesty
Though i know that you're not coming back to me
You know i'll do everything to make you stay
But i just have to let you go
If the feeling is gone

There's a sadness in your smile
Though you try to conceal it
I can tell that the feeling is gone

All i ask is just a little honesty
Though i know that you're not coming back to me
You know i'll do everything to make you stay
But i just have to let you go
If the feeling is gone

All i ask is just a little honesty
Though i know that you're not coming back to me
You know i'll do everything to make you stay
But i just have to let you go
I just have to let you go
If the feeling is gone....

Pictures

I'm still lazy to post stuff about my trip, but I have posted some of the pictures on my site. Go check 'em out: http://mareejoi.tk.

Keep on bloggin'...

I wish I wasn't
by Heather Headley

I'm home alone again
And you're out hangin' with your friends
So you say
Somehow I know it's not quite that way

It's getting pretty late
And you haven't checked on me all day
When I called you didn't answer
Now I'm feelin' like you're ignorin' me

I wish that you were home
Holdin' me tight in your arms
And I wish I could go back
To the day before we met
And skip my regret

I wish I wasn't in love with you
So you couldn't hurt me
It just ain't fair the way you treat me
No, you don't deserve me
Wasted my time thinkin' 'bout you
And you ain't never gon' change
I wish I wasn't in love with you
So I wouldn't feel this way

When you touch me my heart melts(And anything you did wrong I forgive)
Yeah, yeah
So you play me and take advantage
Of the love that I feel for you
Why you wanna hurt me so bad
I believed in you that's why I'm so mad
Now I'm drowning in disappointment
And it's hard for me to even look at you

I wish that you were home, oh, yes, I do
Holdin' me tight in your arms, ooh, baby
And I wish I could go back
To the day before we met
And skip my regret

I wish I wasn't in love with you
So you couldn't hurt me (I don't wanna hurt no more)
It just ain't fair (It just ain't fair, no) the way you treat me
No, you don't desert me (You, you)
Wasted my time thinkin' 'bout you
And you ain't never gon' change (You ain't never gonna change)
I wish I wasn't (I wasn't in love) in love with you
So I wouldn't feel this way (I wouldn't feel this way)

Said you care about me, but from what I see
I ain't feelin' that, so I disagree
Gave you all my love and understanding
And you treated me like your enemy

So leave me alone, don't bother to follow me
Now just go back where you came from
This house is no longer your home
You are not welcome no, no, no more, no more

I wish I wasn't in love with you
So you couldn't hurt me (You couldn't hurt me, baby)
It just ain't fair (It just ain't fair) the way you treat me (The way you treat me)
No, you don't deserve me (You don't deserve me, baby)
Wasted my time (Oh, oh) thinkin' 'bout you (Thinkin' about you)
And you ain't never gon' change (You're never gonna change, never gonna change)

I wish I wasn't in love with you
So I wouldn't feel this way
I wish I wasn't in love with you
So you couldn't hurt me (You couldn't hurt me this bad)
It just ain't fair (It ain't fair) the way you treat me (No, it ain't fair)
No, you don't deserve me (You don't deserve me, my love)
Wasted my time (Ooh) thinkin' 'bout you (Thinkin' about you)
And you ain't never gon' change (You ain't gonna never change)
I wish I wasn't (Wasn't) in love with you (In love with you)
So I wouldn't feel this way

Hear you knockin' at the door again
I'm wonderin' should I let you in
I open up the door and see
The flowers for me, so beautiful in your hand
You start beggin' me to take you back
I've always been a sucker for romance
And before you know it I could see it, you're all over me
Oh, no, here I go again

I wish I wasn't in love with you
So you couldn't hurt me

* this song is for you...*

Updates...

I haven't updated my blog in a LOOONG time.

I have a lot of things to say, especially about our Batangas trip last Jan. 15-17. I just don't feel like writing right now...

I am depressed. I am heartbroken.

Please check back for updates...I promise to post my trip here...

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	erotic
Your hugs are...	gentle
Your eyes...	sparkle like the stars
Your touch is...	irresistable
Your smell is...	exotic
Your smile is...	encouraging
Your love is...	one of a kind
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UH-OH... New year's resolution...

In the year 2005 I resolve to: Swallow more, spit less. Get your resolution here

Rest day, happy day....

It's finally my rest day. I was absent last night. I can't believe it, but I have to face it: I have insomnia...

It's irritating! Tossing and turning in bed, praying to all the saints to let me sleep. I only slept for 2 hrs for 3 days in a row. I can't keep doing this. I have work every night at 8pm, and I need my f*cking sleep! AARRGGHHH!!!!!!

Here I am in the office, at 6:30am, still here though I logged out at 5am. Nicole wanted to watch a movie, so we're killing time in the office till the mall opens at 10am...I'm fighting the urge to go home and sleep...heck I may not be sleeping when I get home coz of this sleeping disorder, so might as well watch a movie. By the time I go home, I'll be hungry for my bed and my pillows and blankets and boyfriend...wehehehe...

I WANT THIS!

I really really REALLY want this BLOUSE (click the blouse word)...I saw one like this in SM North Edsa, but it has sleeves...It was P900+...AAAAAAAAAARRRRGGHHHHHHHH...

Online this costs US$39.00...DAMN!

Welcome 2005!

Happy New Year to everyone!

On Thursday Dec. 30, Raymund picked me up at around 10:30pm to go to Malate. We attended a goth party at Kel's Bar. Dominion performed that night. The bar was full, and we had to bring our drinks downstairs. Raymund's friends Marvin and Anell were also there.

I spent the whole day of Dec. 31 sleeping. Woke up at around 8pm, and Raymund was sleeping soundly next to me. Took a bath and had dinner alone. Fell asleep again after eating. He woke me up at 10:30pm. We ate together and then we headed off to Ayala. We watched the fireworks display and the bands that played onstage. We listened to Parokya ni Edgar, Kitchie Nadal, Imago... The fireworks were awesome! *yahoo*

We both went upstairs to our offices (the stage was near our office). I took advantage of the free food in the office. Then I met up with Raymund again to watch some more bands. After that, we took off with some friends to Rockwell. We went to the Studio 23 party at the rooftop. It was pretty cool when it started drizzling, then stopped when we were about to leave, and then drizzled again. LOL. A foreign girl started dancing behind me. She has been making eye contact with me the whole time. She's lucky I wasn't drunk yet...or else...LOL.

We got home at around 4am. Raymund's siblings were there. We retired to bed soon after we arrived. He had to go to work at 8am.

I was asleep for only 2 hrs. I woke up when Raymund got up to bath. Couldn't sleep after that. I cleaned the room a bit. Finally slept at around 3pm, and couldn't pull my ass of the bed at 5:45pm to go to work. Sigh. Raymund arrived at around 6:15pm.

He told me that someone got shot in his office. Some outsider broke in and shot this guy in the eye three times. How morbid! And it is the f*cking new year's day! People are truly crazy. What's even more f*cked up is that the outsider was able to get into the office past the security guards. That's totally BS.

I haven't made any new years resolution yet. Raymund said he will stop smoking, and he hasnt smoked since the new year came in. Wow. He's really serious about quitting. I think that he made the right decision. I just hope he sticks to it. God, I love him so much! *mwuah*

Right now, I'm back at work. Just had lunch and I'm feeling bloated from all the food I ate. Very sleepy.