Mikaela's Moon

by Ashlee Simpson

On a Monday, I am waiting
Tuesday, I am fading
And by Wednesday, I can't sleep
Then the phone rings, I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
Cuz you've come to rescue me

Fall... With you, I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath, I hope it lasts

[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you've known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

I am moody, messy
I get restless, and it's senseless
How you never seem to care

Fall... Sometimes I fall so fast
Well, I hit that bottom
Crash, you're all I have

[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

How do you know everything I'm about to say?
Am I that obvious?
And if it's written on my face...
I hope it never goes away... yeah

On a Monday, I am waiting
And by Tuesday, I am fading into your arms...
So I can breathe

[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you've know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me...

This is a friend's blog. Quite cool. She has poems and stuff there, check it out. Click on the title of this post.

I hate it when you wait for someone, and then that someone does not tell you that he/she won't be able to make it for some reason. And then, they tell when it's too late already, you're already pissed off and you're lacking sleep or you missed doing something else. I mean, I don't mind waiting, but I HATE IT when I wait for NOTHING. I just hate it. I think these people are really inconsiderate, thoughtless and selfish. Think about other people's feelings! arrrggghhhhh!

Sigh. I just needed to get that off my chest.

I have created a TK account so the new URL of my blog is:

http://petix.tk

Thanks peeps! Cheers...

I am back. So many things has happened to me, and one of the reasons why I have not updated my blog is that I was food poisoned.

Exactly one week ago, I showed up at the office on a Saturday night for work, but I could hardly walk. My stomach was killing me, and I vomitted in the rest room. My friend accompanied me to the clinic (get this, the clinic on our floor is closed on weekends) which is in the next building (Philam). They gave me medicine for my "upset" stomach. It was not upset, it was berserk! I did not work, I mean I could hardly breathe when my stomach lurches with pain. I drank my medicine, went to the rest room 7 times, and slept in the sleep room until it was time for me to log out.

The suspect: Friday night, my boyfriend and I met up with his friends at Grappa in Greenbelt 3. We had banana flavored beer and baked oysters. When i got home on Sunday morning from work, I found out my boyfriend also had an upset stomach. And by Sunday morning, I was running a fever. Damn those oysters! So, I was absent last weekend, which is the time I update my blog becauswe don't have a lot of calls coming in.

In a span of two weeks, I have watched 3 movies: The Stepford Wives, Alien vs. Predator, and The Princess Diaries 2. The first movie stars Nicole Kidman, and MAN she is HOT in that movie (duh isn't she always hot?!). The plot is cool, I highly recommend this one.

The second movie...uhm...I guess it's ok. It made me jump with all those startling scenes. But other than that...nothing impressed me much.

The last movie I watched is funny and has the kilig ingredient. I really loved the idea of suddenly finding out you're a princess and you get to live in this castle with an incredible walk-in closet! WOW!

Overall, I've been spending a lot of time with my friend Nell. It's all about talking, eating, and shopping. WAHOO!

To those who read my blog regularly and send me comments, THANK YOU! =)

Been reading friends' blogs lately, and a new movie is on everyone's lips (or blogs for that matter): Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.

Again, I am curious why this is such a hit right now. Better grab a copy of the movie. Wait, is it showing yet? Or did I miss it (again, just like Imelda).

I think I have seen the preview before, starring Jim Carrey and Kate Winslet. I better research on this one. (and hopefully NOT miss it).

I've been feeling down for some time now, so I've been quiet. But things are now starting to look up, and maybe I can go back to my old noisy cheerful crazy self. Cheers!

I went to SM North Edsa last Friday for the sale. I was there before 10am, and waited for the stores to open. A lot of people were already there, waiting for the opening of the sale. I wasn't really planning on buying clothes, but I passed by Kamiseta and there were sooo many people that I decided to see what the heck was going on.

It turned out that they had a 50% discount on all the items, and I mean ALL. People were yanking blouses from their hangers like peeling thorns stuck in your pants. In 20 minutes, most of the clothes were gone. The ones left were those in ridiculous sizes (extra small and extra large). I managed to dig up 2 blouses that were nice and simple, and for half the price! haha!

Next stop, Penshoppe just across Kamiseta. I had this stupid smile on my face when I left Kamiseta. hehe...I got a cologne from Penshoppe, the one that smelled like pears. Yummy.

Bought Cosmo next, and then earrings and then 6 pairs of socks. And then stuff for the bathroom (body scrub, etc). Next was the bookstore. Browsed thru the Anne Rice books and bought a thin paperback by a Filipino author. No boyfriend since Birth by Claire Betita is funny and realistic. I found myself reading it thrice in one day. Plus points: only costs P150.

Final stop was the supermarket. Sigh. I was VERY tired when I got home, and I had fever the next morning. Sheesh. And so I didn't go to work Saturday night.

I am so lazy to go to work. It's a Sunday, it's raining, and I have to work nights. Life indeed sucks.

It is so cold in this freaking office that I have so many things wrapped around my body. Jacket, with hood on my head, thick blue blanket from my office friend...I look like a freaking burger! Should've bought a thick jacket...sigh...the pains of not having enough money...so much to buy, so little money...again, life indeed sucks.

by Hoobastank

I'm not a perfect person
So many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears

Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

I'm sleepy. I got home at around 9:30am and fell asleep at around 11am. Woke up at 6pm, when my boyfriend came home. Sooooo sleepy and soooooo lazy to go to work. Sigh.

It's a good thing that we don't have a lot of calls coming in tonight. I am sooooo not in the mood.

I finished Memnoch this morning when I got home. The ending sucks. Bitin! Bad trip!

And so I have finished the fifth book in the series. Time to get the sixth! I think the title is The Vampire Armand. Creeps. I don't like Armand at all...Louis is ok, but I love, love, love, love Lestat. The second book, The Vampire Lestat, is one of my favorites. I read it several times already. Wolfkiller...

I am sooooo looking forward to Friday. It's pay day and there's a 3-day sale in SM North Edsa! WAHOOO! SALE SALE SALE! I love SALES! I'm going to get new socks, new pants, new blouse, new jacket, new bag...sigh. If only I have the money for all those...I'll probably just get the socks and blouse. Another sigh.

I really like this new template. So feminine! =) hehehe...

Decided to change the template...feeling kinda girly today and decided to make the color a little more lively...having that blue template makes my blog even sadder and I want to snap out of my emotional phase...

la lang, gusto ko lang sabihin...

I just finished another grueling Monday night shift working in a call center. Since it's a Monday, tons of calls came in, and tons of stress added to my already decaying sleep-lacking body. Total of 51 calls. Sigh.

So here I am sitting in front of my pc at work, waiting for my boyfriend's first break at 7:45. I decided to wait for him and have breakfast together. It's his first day on the morning shift (6am-3pm). I miss him a lot coz our skeds are always conflicting with each other. Imagine, my shift ends at 6am and his shift starts at 6am. Sigh.

I just heard that our schedule shift will be postponed. The Workforce department are going to adjust the priority numbers given to us. I really, really, really, really, REALLY hope I get the freaking morning shift.

Updates on Memnoch: I still haven't finished it. I read a little yesterday morning when I got home. Lestat is back on Earth. Dora has the veil and has gone nuts (to my opinion anyways). I hope to finish it before my rest day on Thursday. It's almost a week now and I haven't finished it yet! That book is driving me crazy, seriously.

On my personal life: I had a dream about my brothers. I have two: one is 11 years old and the other one is 3 years old. The last time I saw them was in June when my paternal grandmother died. Haven't seen them since. Haven't gone home. I'm still in bad terms with my parents. I know they haven't forgiven me for what I did, maybe they never will. It's sad sometimes thinking about it. I mean, if you guys know how close my mom and I were, you'd get sad too. People always thought we were sisters: we'd go shopping together, go to parties together, share gossips with one another over foot spas, grocery shopping every weekend, and back up one another against "enemies". Back in high school, we wore matching black and white clothes for my school's Parent Day. Cool huh? Since that "fight", things were never the same. My mom ignores me when I'm in the house, we don't talk anymore...I don't even feel like she wants to see me in her house. Oh well, such is life. As they say, you can't have everything.

So I made a choice and yes, I'm sticking to that choice. I chose to be here, and here I intend to stay. I just wish that things would get ACCEPTED soon...

I think I need to sleep, I'm getting emotional again. I always have this phase every month. Maybe it's one of those girl things. Hmmm...too early for that, but what the heck...better early than none at all...does that make sense people? Maybe not. My brain is not working anymore. Gotta go...

au revoir...

by Alicia Keys

um....um....Some people live for the fortune
some people live for just for the fame
some people live for the power(yeah)
some people live just to play the game
some people think that the physical things define
what's within and i bet that before that life's adore are
full of the superficial

Some people want it all
but i don't want nothing all
if it ain't you baby ,if i ain't got you baby
some people want diamond rings
some just want everything
but everything means nothing if i ain't got you
yeah

some people search for a fountain
promises are forever yours
some people need the dozen roses
that's the only way you prove you love them

hand me the world
on a silver platter
then what good would it be
no one to share
no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
but i don't want nothing all
if it ain't you baby, if i ain't got you baby
some people want diamons rings
some just want everything
but everything is nothing if i ain't got you

yeah
if i ain't got you with me baby
ain't nothing in this wholewide world don't mean a thing
if i ain't got you with me baby

I am currently reading the fifith book of the Vampire Chronicles by Anne Rice. Now I'm a fast reader and I can usually finish a book in a day if I want to. It is now the third day, and I have yet to finish it! I've only got 200 more pages to go, but I have to stop now and then because it gives me a headache.

Let me try to explain. Anne Rice's character, my beloved Lestat, is being convinced by the devil himself, Memnoch the Fallen Archangel, to assist him to win the battle with God. Rice describes Lestat's journey with Memnoch as the devil showed him Heaven, explained Creation, argued that the battle with God needs to end. It's a headache! I mean, I enjoy the story, but a million questions pop up in my head! I know it's fiction, but it's hard to convince myself that it's not real! Sigh...

I envy Lestat. I wish I could talk to God, like he did. I want to ask him WHY. If He knew all the things that are going to happen, WHY did he let evil crawl on Earth? WHY did He let mankind suffer? All these things, God tried to explain as BEAUTY, as the beauty that lies in the Natural. Hmm...I find myself confused like Lestat. If ever the things Rice said were true...what the heck am I saying?! Damn! Sigh. I'm getting another headache.

I thought Queen of the Damned was the best in the Vampire Chronicles...but now, I think Memnoch is more intense, more...scary. I actually find myself sleeping with the lights on last Thursday night.

I love Anne Rice, and I love vampires...my dad used to say I'm abnormal...

I went to National Bookstore, and I actually saw that they had stocks of the ENTIRE Mayfair Witches series! DAMN! Wish they'd still be there on my payday next Friday...harharhar!

Instead of watching "Imelda", we watched iRobot last Thursday night. It was great! Will Smith is still, to my opinion, one of THE sexiest guy in the planet. His black leather Chuck Taylor shoes inspired me to FINALLY buy my own pair of chuckies. I didn't get the leather ones, though I did try a pair. The original ones are much more comfortable. So we went shopping the day after watching the movie, feeling confident that my ATM is full...and guess what? After shopping for a pair of shoes and undies, I only had 9oo pesos left to spend till the next pay day. Godd luck to me...

The movie was cool. I really love, love and love Will Smith's car. Sooooooo cool. But the concept of robots taking over the world (ala Matrix) really scares the shit out of me. If I'm still alive when robots become a household appliance, I am not going to get one. So many things can go wrong with machines, and I wouldn't risk the safety of my family just for the convenience of it.

Things at work are not going well. My team's QA scores are so disappointing, it's depressing to even talk about. The main reason for our low QA scores is our QA analyst for the month. If he's the QA analyst, don't expect to pass...

On a positive note, I am now a regular employee. Woohoo! Extra pay!

Another negative thing at work. Agents with stats that stink are gonna be separated from the rest of the team. A total of 18 agents will be taken out (like thorns...hehe), and they will be closely monitored by 2 supervisors and several members of the Strike Team (Level 2 agents or Tier2). Agents will be there for 2 weeks, and if their stats improve (AHT and QA scores...sorry for the terms to those who are not call center agents), they will go back to their ordinary schedules. Those 18 agents will be on the 10pm-7am Sat Sun rest day sked...sigh. I can feel that I am one of those agents. Godd luck to me. Hopefully, I will get the morning shift on our next sked shift, which is on Aug 15. Sigh. I chose the 7am-4pm sked. Praying that I get it...I've been on the graveyard shift for 6 months. I WANT TO BE NORMAL!!!

So now my break is over and I need to go back to my beloved EarthLink customers. NOT!

Farewell...