Mikaela's Moon

I am now on my second night at "Academy Bay". I hate this shift. Long hours. We have meetings before and after the shift, so we have around an hour of OT everyday. Shift starts at 8pm, but we have to be here by 7:30 or else we will be marked late. Sigh.

Aside from the shift hours, it's tiring because of the pressure. We have to perform well, because we are closely monitored. If we don't perform well, we will be on ABay again next time, and if we do, we will get a memo. Life sucks.

I don't like my rest days: Sat and Sun. I am not accustomed to working on weekdays, I always had Thursday and Friday off...I feel like I have to drag my ass to work everyday. Sigh.

Forgot to mention that my boyfriend and I watched "The Notebook" last week. I cried and cried and cried...I was trying VERY hard not to cry, but I can't help it! I couldn't believe that I convinced him to watch that with me...HAHA! He seemed touched by the story, which is good. I looked like hell when the movie ended. I was embarassed coz people were looking at my swollen red eyes (they probably thought that my boyfriend and I had a fight, haha!). I highly recommend this movie to those romantics out there. It's a beautiful love story by Nicholas Sparks. Sigh.

It's really hard being in this schedule, my boyfriend and I don't see each other anymore. Sigh.

We have started listing down the things we need to bring and things we need to buy when we move out. We are planning to rent a place and be on our own. We also started calculating the expenses for our wedding and moving out...We decided to have the wedding at the end of Dec or first week of Jan, when we receive our 13th month pay. It will just be a simple civil wedding with only our family members there.

Honestly, I got a little scared. Before, it was just planning and stuff...but now...we actually made a list! I got help from my friend to ask for the list of requirements needed to apply for a marriage liscence and all that...she also advised me not to get scared, instead do some reflecting to decide if I really AM ready, and if he's really THE ONE...

I realized that, yes, I am ready to face the responsibilities. Yes, I am ready to take care of him if he gets sick. Yes, I am ready to cook and clean and be a house wife and be a future mom...Yes, I am willing to be totally committed to one person, and Yes I am convinced that he is THE ONE, and yes I really really love him so much.

Haha! I'm getting really corny! *sigh* I guess I'm just excited that FINALLY I am getting married and that all the hard things that I had to go thru paid off after all. *smiles*

That's it for now...time to work. hehe.